Human Kindness

After what feels like a long and slow battle with finding stability in Bipolar, I finally seem to be heading towards my goal of a balanced life.

On release from my third stay in a Psychiatric hospital in 21 months, I really feel like I may be on my final few miles to long term stability. My life has balance, the medication seems to be working for me without any nasty side effects and my knowledge of my illness and its triggers in me are lodged firmly in my mind - and on my book shelf!

With hope in my heart I wish for these drugs to work out and I can be stable for the future. Its almost 2 years since I was diagnosed and its been turbulent so no wonder I've been running out of steam! As I'm sure you all know it takes a lots of strength to remain positive and upbeat all of the time and I was reaching the end of my rope - but I've tied a knot on the end and I'm hanging on! I remain positive and will graciously accept that this is the intended path for me as I believe everything happens for a reason.

To every person who has done me a kindness, however big or small (and there has been a lot!) - I thank you.

Throughout the toughest few years of my life, amongst sadness, misery and illness, I have learnt what huge power humanity has and how much of humanity has compassion. Through times of suicidal desperation I have had my faith restored in mankind and its power to heal through friendship and kindness.

I have met some incredibly brave, inspiring and caring people in the last couple of years who have turned a dark time into happy memories and long lasting friendships. I have learnt to let people help me because they actually want to. Without all of these people I wouldn't be half the person I am today and I know I will always, always help a person when they need it, if I can.

So as I cling on to my positive mindset I would like to take this opportunity to thank every person that has touched my life, in one way or another, as you have all played a part in me getting where I am today. Everything we do effects something or someone and I have been lucky enough to meet some incredible people in my life who have taught me well.

I will continue to learn and grow into managing my illness and hopefully soon will be able to say I've been stable for a longtime.

Throughout every low, every high, every mood change and loss of temper, for every kind word, every understanding ear, every smile, laugh - I thank you all (and I hope I haven't missed any of you out the collages!!)